A few days ago, I was ranting about being stressed coming up with a synopsis of a novel I passed to my publisher. She had asked me about this for preliminary assessment. Guess, what I haven't come up to any yet, hehe... I'm really so stressed out right now but then again I want to remain cool.
When I am not in the mood to write, I can't pressure myself. There will really be no idea that I can squeeze in my mind. I am pressuring myself now but it's an EPIC FAIL!
But then again, instead of stressing and pressuring myself, why don't I just make myself inspired? So that I can come up with a brilliant idea and nail that synopsis which you might think is just a piece of cake.
Nights prior to this, I have been dreaming about this guy, who let's say, gave me both laughter and tears, hopes and disillusionment sometime in my past. I wonder why he was in my dreams again. He was the only guy who can come to my dreams and really bother me.
So I wondered. I almost buried his memory deep down the ground but those series of dreams freshen up everything. The healing scar turned anew. Anyways, before I get too emotional, just yesterday, I finally uncovered the reason why he pestered my mind and meddled in my dreams. He needed my help. Oh well, he needed my help!
I hesitated. But then again when I realized that he had no other person to run to to solve his dilemma, I gave in. I decided to help him. I am not acting foolish, right? I am just being humanitarian. lol! It is but my nature to help someone who needs me and he needs me so how can i say no?
I should say that I'm moving on. That I had moved on. But his recent attempt to communicate suddenly put my cool into shambles. If its a consolation that when I say his name, it doesn't hurt anymore, then be it. I would love to get over it and continue with my life.
It was nothing. I should stop thinking about and get back to work. As in NOW! NOW!
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